I picked up my first new age book at 10 years old… It was, “You Can Heal Your Life”, by Louise Hay. My mom and I saw her on the Oprah Winfrey Show back in the 80′s… My mom found her intriguing, so she bought the book, but, I was the one who actually read it from cover to cover. My first New Age movie was “Out on a Limb”, it was based on Shirley McClaine’s early shift into awakening and consciousness… I’m pretty sure I was either a pre-teen, or in my early teens when it was released. But, the point I’m making is this… My entire life has been about getting to where I am now. And, where am I?? I’m in the midst of my Masterhood… That’s where I am.
Another thing that has developed during this time, is mylove affair with being alone. Once upon a time, when spiritual pursuits exclusively involved mystery schools, monasteries, etc… Initiates would be thrust-ed into solitude… Whether it be spending time on a mountain alone, going on some sort of pilgrimage or vision quest. Now, spending time alone becomes this addictive luxury. Being alone with your thoughts, your changing DNA, your changing thought forms, just concentrating on breath and allowing… It becomes the new sexy. The lack of sound becomes a lullaby. What used to be anxiety-inducing thoughts of “Oh God, what if I’m alone?!” Becomes, “Oh, thank God, I’m alone! Yay!” In these times, is when you become grateful for the solitude to be, and become more of yourself. In these times, you become comfortable with the idea that all you need is you, and that’s all you’ve ever needed, or will need.
We’ve been misinformed in that we’ve been taught that we have to put up with eachother’s mess, or fix it, or clean it up. And, then we wonder why we fight with one another. It’s simple… Not everyone wants their mess cleaned up! Not every one wants to admit they are a mess. And, some people stupidly think that someone wants to deal with their mess, when they, themselves cannot stand it. Okay, I’m not a huge advocate for logic, by any means. But, that shit makes no sense. If you can’t stand yourself, why should anyone else?!
If you’ve answered the call of lightworker, you’ve seen up close, souls that are so severely lost, so confused, so fill with self-hatred, that your heart aches when dealing with them. But, what do you do? Why are you there? Why are you being shown this? For a few reasons:
Yesterday was a blessing indeed, for too long the feminine has been expressed in secret, not just in cultures, or societies, but, within ourselves. And, it’s time she come front and center, standing next to her counterpart, make us all whole.
Are you getting what I’m saying?? Energy first, transition second, transformation third, understanding fourth. That’s really the process. And, if you go with it, it will serve you well. If you go with it every time, and without struggle…it becomes very easy. And, it’ll be all you want to do, because that is the journey to enlightenment and, it can be as easy or as hard as you choose.
The most challenging thing we will do in life is discover who we really are, followed by an even bigger challenge of BE-ing who we are–without permission, validation, or apology. –Without rules, regulations, or the illusions of right and wrong. This is the source, the creator expressing itself… as you, as me, as everything.
So, lover… what kind of lover will you be? Will you accept the challenge, the journey, the reward of loving you first, foremost and best?? So, that you may one day love us all in a healthy exchange?