I had a very odd weekend… It was a weekend of shifting. It was so weird, that I cannot define it. All I know is that a layer of something came off, at the same time, the ground beneath me seemed to move when I wasn’t looking. My mind was in such shock, and in such a tizzy of anxiety that it–my mind, found my last nerve, and got a severe talking to. After that–I just ignored her, she gets out of hand, and it’s exhausting to try an reason with her and all the stupid questions of “what?”, “why?”, “who?” Honestly… who fucking cares, mind?! Truly, when has logic ever worked in these scenarios?! When have you ever figured it out, while it’s happening?? Right, NEVER! So, do shut up! Needless to say, I avoid people during these times… Everyone will have a bout of crazy, there’s no need to take anyone with you. Hahaha!
Another thing that has developed during this time, is mylove affair with being alone. Once upon a time, when spiritual pursuits exclusively involved mystery schools, monasteries, etc… Initiates would be thrust-ed into solitude… Whether it be spending time on a mountain alone, going on some sort of pilgrimage or vision quest. Now, spending time alone becomes this addictive luxury. Being alone with your thoughts, your changing DNA, your changing thought forms, just concentrating on breath and allowing… It becomes the new sexy. The lack of sound becomes a lullaby. What used to be anxiety-inducing thoughts of “Oh God, what if I’m alone?!” Becomes, “Oh, thank God, I’m alone! Yay!” In these times, is when you become grateful for the solitude to be, and become more of yourself. In these times, you become comfortable with the idea that all you need is you, and that’s all you’ve ever needed, or will need.
As the holiday season begins, I share my divine discontent for manufactured holiday cheer, in lieu of true peace and kindness toward one another.
So, this is where we wonder why it is that some of you believe that some members of your family deserve things, and others do not? Why should some have more than they require, while others do not have anything at all? Who are the designers of the idea, that your planet does not provide everything that you all need? Who benefits from this farce? This illusion? When did it all begin? And, most importantly… Why? The why, we can tell you. Once upon a time… you all knew that you were family. And, at some point, you chose to forget. So the same planet that could provide everything for everyone, now “seemingly” has a shortage of it’s ability to provide food, shelter and clothing. Or, has someone realized that the withholding of those things, is a wonderful (if not horrible) way to control large groups of people?
This isn’t about politics… This isn’t about the economy… This isn’t about social class… This isn’t about religion… This is about the liberation of the spirit. This is about you and us as the individual, powerful, infinite beings we are, realizing and utilizing our power to say “yes”, or “no”. And, realizing that those two words are powerful, and are challenged everyday by those who would have your power for themselves. But, in order for ANYONE to have your power, YOU have to give it to them.
The wonderful thing about the void, is that it isn’t stationery. It isn’t in one place–but, many places. It’s within us, around us, above and below us. In our choices, we, too create a spark of creation in our void, and then allow it into our lives to travel attracting whatever it needs to become whatever it will be. And, then suddenly–we have inspiration for an idea to make something of substance and matter. We do this all the time, but, do not think about the “how” and the “where”.
Help means: You do your part, you make room, and allow the other person to CHOOSE to help themselves. And, guess what– you’re not going to like it– but, that’s not my purpose…THEY DON’T HAVE TO TAKE THE HELP! Tada! Hey, I told you–you wouldn’t like it. But, it’s the truth, and if applied appropriately, you don’t have to be hurt.
The truth is… a relationship with you and another person can only be as good as the relationship each individual has with themselves. So, if you are in denial about issues going on unaddressed within yourself, it will, can and must show itself in your relationship with others. What kind of relationship am I referring to?? Pick one, honey… They all apply!
Are you getting what I’m saying?? Energy first, transition second, transformation third, understanding fourth. That’s really the process. And, if you go with it, it will serve you well. If you go with it every time, and without struggle…it becomes very easy. And, it’ll be all you want to do, because that is the journey to enlightenment and, it can be as easy or as hard as you choose.