But, this isn’t just my story is it? It’s the story of the human being. The moment we assert ourselves, the moment we emphatically, and strongly use our voices– our individuality, there will be someone, or, many there to accuse us of something. Whether it be, you’re “judmental”, “selfish”, “mean”, “rude”, etc… There will be those who wish you would shut the fuck up, because you’re bothering them. You are giving voice to the insecurities, inadequacies, self-loathing and fear that they have been hiding from both others and themselves. Now, you must pay! You must be stoned, burned, shunned, yelled at, berated, criticized… Any of this sounding familar?
In my life-long quest of self expression, I’ve learned this for sure… I don’t like cliques, I don’t require approval of anything other than my own heart. I know that I can walk alone, as long as I’m happy–and, I’m happiest when I’m true to myself. I have never felt comfortable with the concept of group think–thus, I’ve happily sat on the fringes of a lot of organizations, groups, communities, etc… Why? I think I’ve always known this: very rarely does a group allow it’s members to become self-empowered enough to lead themselves. The moment someone does that–the entire group turns and swarms them like angry bees. You know what I’m talking about. You’ve either been one of the angry bees attacking, or you’ve been the rebel who questioned the hive, and was attacked.
We’ve been misinformed in that we’ve been taught that we have to put up with eachother’s mess, or fix it, or clean it up. And, then we wonder why we fight with one another. It’s simple… Not everyone wants their mess cleaned up! Not every one wants to admit they are a mess. And, some people stupidly think that someone wants to deal with their mess, when they, themselves cannot stand it. Okay, I’m not a huge advocate for logic, by any means. But, that shit makes no sense. If you can’t stand yourself, why should anyone else?!
At some point in your journey, you have to choose who gets to be in your life’s story, and who needs to leave. When you love you–you want to do what’s best…all the time. When you have you–you are never lonely, thus, you don’t “need” others, you only “want” them. When you have you–you don’t have to settle for the scraps in life, whehter they be people, food, jobs, etc… You just don’t do it, and have no problem saying so.
Are we ever off duty? No. No. And, yeah, um… NO. There have been days where I’ve been at home thinking in my safe haven, my sacred space, my little temple that I would rest, and be safe from answering someone’s call. Nope. This doesn’t happen. On those days, I get phone calls, emails, telepathic messages, people knocking on doors… etc. Why? Because so many are waking up right now, that lightworkers are and must be seen. If you as a lightworkers are thinking there must be some sort of sign over your head, over your house that says, “Help is over here!!!” You are right! You are being seen, all the time, everywhere throughout the universe. So… get used to it! The light doesn’t go out, it only gets brighter as you become better. Do I ever get exhausted??? Hell yeah! But, I rest. I realize not all things will be done on the day a “call” for assistance comes in. I always take care of me, first. Do you understand? This is NOT about sacrifice. This is NOT about being a messiah, or a guru. This is NOT about ego-stroking. This IS about being of service.
Help means: You do your part, you make room, and allow the other person to CHOOSE to help themselves. And, guess what– you’re not going to like it– but, that’s not my purpose…THEY DON’T HAVE TO TAKE THE HELP! Tada! Hey, I told you–you wouldn’t like it. But, it’s the truth, and if applied appropriately, you don’t have to be hurt.
Whatever you do–do not try and make something happen by charging after it. Instead…allow it to come to you, like the magician you are. It really is that easy, as I’ve noticed it in my own life. But, don’t put the wizard’s cap on me just yet… just because I know what the tools are, doesn’t mean I have any idea as to how to use them. Thus… my “silence”… which just means watching, and, allowing the pixels of the answers to start forming a picture in my mind.
What I can no longer deal with in in any form is: adults who are unaware of themselves and projecting issues onto other people. Sorry (enter sarcasm here)…I am NOT responsible for your feelings… you are. I am not responsible for any of the damages you’ve incurred on your way to here. And, I will not pretend to be. Just like I will not expect you to treat me with kid gloves because of anything that’s happened in my past.
My point is this: Much like the rest of nature you will have challenges in pursuing life. You will have people throwing roadblocks up to keep you from getting where you’d like to go. And, yes–yes, you will have pain. There will be other people buzzing their opinions, ideas, and advice in your ear to “help” you. But, you know what??? Live your life anyway! Make your mission to live bigger than any of the adversities that will surely come. My “friends” the insects have anywhere from days to years to live–and, they don’t waste any of it.
Spiritual growth will ask you to heal every hurt, and severe everything and everyone who hurts you. Ascension will ask you to do that. Your divine self cannot flourish while hurting, or being hurt. At some point–you will have to choose. Do not fool yourselves, there’s no peace without healing. And, there’s no healing without releasing the pain. So, once again, I implore you–know yourself for yourself. It will ease your journey toward remembering how divine, how amazing , how loved you truly are.