I’m talking about this, because I finally can. Like many of you, I’ve been on this wobbly, whirling cosmic energetic trip. Feeling dizzy, out of body, disconnected from EVERYTHING. My vision saw the everything as surreal. I was here but, I kinda wasn’t. It’s a lot different then the spin cycle that we’ve all sorta gotten used to. Where everything was moving so fast, you had to keep running to catch your breath–except, the truth is, you should have stopped to catch your breath. All of these energies are here from the universe to rip away what’s not real, what’s not working, what’s not serving you, or us, for our highest good. It must go! You cannot keep it, it’s no longer in energetic harmony of the coming of the new earth, the new human, the new you. Let it go, damn it!
But, this isn’t just my story is it? It’s the story of the human being. The moment we assert ourselves, the moment we emphatically, and strongly use our voices– our individuality, there will be someone, or, many there to accuse us of something. Whether it be, you’re “judmental”, “selfish”, “mean”, “rude”, etc… There will be those who wish you would shut the fuck up, because you’re bothering them. You are giving voice to the insecurities, inadequacies, self-loathing and fear that they have been hiding from both others and themselves. Now, you must pay! You must be stoned, burned, shunned, yelled at, berated, criticized… Any of this sounding familar?
So, here’s the thing… my tolerance for fuffy fuffy, puffy wuffy, illusionary, bullshit spirituality is at an all time low. Truly, I’ve developed a gag reflex to those spiritual “gurus” who are sooo image-conscious now that someone’s paying them a lot of money, that they forgot why they started doing what they are doing in the first place. Hello… your gig was to empower people! So, just because you wrote some books, got a few TV spots, are on some radio shows, and Oprah loves you— doesn’t mean the gig has changed… it may mean YOU have changed. Let me be clear, I am not mad at any of those who paved the way for me. My irritation is losing the message, distorting the clarion call for spiritual freedom, the recognition and release of each I AM walking the planet right now. My concern is that someone gets up on a podium to spread love, wisdom and light, and then they forget to have a friggin seat every once in a while.
So…if you insist…keep looking out your own eyes into nature, into animals, children, and people, with the delusion that you are better. It’s your choice. But, I promise you– this will NOT make the world a better place for you. It WILL NOT quell feelings of insecurity, fear, or fill any voids you may have within yourself. What it WILL DO is give you a lot of anxiety, paranoia and absolutely NO peace. You will most certainly miss the entire point of embodiment. Which is what?? For the divine to express itself in as many ways as possible, for the sheer joy of it. Again… the choice is yours.
Wise people share knowledge, they live it, they own their choices. Martyrdom is straight up ego-tripping! I do not need to suffer for you–you’ve got that covered–you chose it. In a moment where you were at a cross roads of doing what would move you along on your road, you chose to either to not move out of fear, or move backward out of fear. What would people say, do, think of you? Are you worthy of such good things, happiness, freedom? But, what about all those people who don’t have what you have? What about all those suffering souls who are going without? No disrespect, but, how the hell will your suffering along with the already suffering help?! People believe what they see–so, if you’re shinning your brightest light, if you’re living your core being on a daily basis–who’s going to miss that radiance?
I picked up my first new age book at 10 years old… It was, “You Can Heal Your Life”, by Louise Hay. My mom and I saw her on the Oprah Winfrey Show back in the 80′s… My mom found her intriguing, so she bought the book, but, I was the one who actually read it from cover to cover. My first New Age movie was “Out on a Limb”, it was based on Shirley McClaine’s early shift into awakening and consciousness… I’m pretty sure I was either a pre-teen, or in my early teens when it was released. But, the point I’m making is this… My entire life has been about getting to where I am now. And, where am I?? I’m in the midst of my Masterhood… That’s where I am.
In my life-long quest of self expression, I’ve learned this for sure… I don’t like cliques, I don’t require approval of anything other than my own heart. I know that I can walk alone, as long as I’m happy–and, I’m happiest when I’m true to myself. I have never felt comfortable with the concept of group think–thus, I’ve happily sat on the fringes of a lot of organizations, groups, communities, etc… Why? I think I’ve always known this: very rarely does a group allow it’s members to become self-empowered enough to lead themselves. The moment someone does that–the entire group turns and swarms them like angry bees. You know what I’m talking about. You’ve either been one of the angry bees attacking, or you’ve been the rebel who questioned the hive, and was attacked.
We’ve been misinformed in that we’ve been taught that we have to put up with eachother’s mess, or fix it, or clean it up. And, then we wonder why we fight with one another. It’s simple… Not everyone wants their mess cleaned up! Not every one wants to admit they are a mess. And, some people stupidly think that someone wants to deal with their mess, when they, themselves cannot stand it. Okay, I’m not a huge advocate for logic, by any means. But, that shit makes no sense. If you can’t stand yourself, why should anyone else?!
At some point in your journey, you have to choose who gets to be in your life’s story, and who needs to leave. When you love you–you want to do what’s best…all the time. When you have you–you are never lonely, thus, you don’t “need” others, you only “want” them. When you have you–you don’t have to settle for the scraps in life, whehter they be people, food, jobs, etc… You just don’t do it, and have no problem saying so.