Okay kids… Momma had to go back downtown to get paid! LOL On day two at my new gig in money-making downtown Manhattan. And, this gig promises to make an honest worker outta me. In a way, I’m marrying this gig, yep, we’re gonna commit to eachother. I’m getting a permanent job. Why? Cause I need to produce a film and open a store for women to buy their overprice undies–that’s why! Heehee It’s funny to me how abstract my brain is, I can see the connections in most things. I work in finance, I need to finance two major [...]

Counter-parted   He is reflected in ethers shadowing my light like moths to a flame… His thoughts repeatedly screaming my name… But, his soul’s calling he will not answer. Frantically searching for the easiest way, perhaps an underground tunnel… Refusing the straightest path, in darkness he’ll fumble As truth avoided spreads like cancer. I haven’t left you I am here to hold the line. There it lay right in front of you–your soul’s journey to find. You need only walk as student, end as master. The silence brings your muffled cries As my sadness for us both mists my eyes. [...]

So, while I understand that today is in fact the beginning of a new week. I feel as if I’m just ending last week. Last week was particularly tinged with a bit of darkness and sadness. It’s interesting how things tend to come to me in clusters, I was dealing with situations and people navigating the unknown and the darkness that sometimes accompanies it. I know, I said that I was off-duty, but, some people decided that they needed to reach me anyway… Honestly, I don’t mind so much, just as long as people understand that when I’m tired, I’m [...]

OMG!!!! Memorial Day weekend has brought with it some absolute insanity, which I am proud to say I’ve navigated very well. It’s funny, because I’m pretty sure I do a great job of exhibiting who I am, and what I will and will not deal with. I thought I was pretty clear that I expect the same efforts, time and energy I put into any given situation back. If you work a job, you expect payment. If you’re a good friend to someone, you expect it back. If you are wonderful to your beloved, you should be treated that way [...]

I’m impatient– I am. Even when I’m at my most patient, I’m impatient. But, as I sit here in my spiritual cave, cocoon, temple or whatever. I realize– that I’m sooo okay with being the only one in here. I’m feeling good in my solititude, as good as I do with a room full of my near-and-dears. I don’t put stock in other people much. Now, don’t get me wrong, I love people, I love being surprised by the world at large, but, I’m not emotionally attached to it anymore. I have nothing to prove to it, you or…myself. I [...]

I just want all to know that I’m going to be off-duty for a little while. I have this bad habit of sometimes putting other people’s issues before myself. And, while most of the time it isn’t a problem. Lately, I’ve noticed that I’m experiencing the “watching water boil” syndrome. I plant seeds, I point out options, directions, and am more than happy to share whatever wisdom I have. But, right now…is the time to allow the simmer to do whatever it will. I’ve given a lot of tools over the years, to various people. I have. I’ve been amazed [...]

Okay, so, I know that in today’s society, being happy with yourself is frowned upon. Being loving towards yourself  in all your aspects means you’re weird–but, you know what? Society is wrong and has been for quite some time. So…in true rebel fashion…”I’m not listening to you!” Heehee! I just got through a tough week. This week asked me to be strong, awake and clear-minded when everything outside of me was urging me to fold like a house of cards! But, I perservered, and I showed some grace while doing it. Living in NYC for almost 14yrs, could  be like [...]

I need to get this out… I am not into to fundamentalist of any sort. Truly…I am not. I was raised in a very Christain home, and my mom used to watch the now very deceased Jerry Fallwel in our home. But, as I got older she stopped watching. And, as I got older, I started asking questions, living my life and finding my own answers. Here’s the truth about me, I do not believe in organized religion. I do not believe in fear-mongering of any sort, by any one. Fear isn’t a tool to educate, empower or make peace. Imaginary [...]

People I give you my horoscope for the week, spot on as per usual: “There can be no transformation of darkness into light and of apathy into movement without emotion,” wrote psychologist Carl Jung. That should be your motto in the coming week, Libra. Clear thinking and impeccable logic will not be sufficient to guide you to your next great adventure. You need the driving force of succulent emotion rising up in your solar plexus, the lush power of raw sensitivity piercing your heart. Feel as deep as you dare.  

So, I’m tired. I’ve been just going at this living thing full force–is there any other way? Um…no. Not for me. In the last two days, I’ve just been using a lot of energy for the betterment of myself, my endeavors and those I hope to empower. And, I’m pooped. Yoga and Qi Gong needed…stat! And, I’m on that…for real, for real! So, what’s the dealio?! It’s been my observation that a lot of my dude-friends are having to face those age-old questions of, “Who am I? What’s my purpose? How can I be happy?” While the dudettes are being [...]