It always amazes me when the guys I am involved with romantically don’t listen to me. I mean, I come with warning labels, and yet, they ignore them. And, then…I’ll end up doing what I had been warning all along. Let be me clear, the ego is a big fat liar!! It will tell you that your partner won’t leave even after they’ve said a million times they would, but, still tried to stick it out with you. Eventually…THEY WILL LEAVE YOU! So, don’t start thinking they “need” you to breathe, or to exist. They don’t! Oh, and by the way, [...]

A Life beyond Illusion   It’s just that I don’t belong here… Where fear pollutes the air, that love must purify. And, darkness devours hope like the last ray of sunshine. This isn’t life, at least, not mine!   I don’t understand this separation These illusions that all things are unequal and we are islands… Floating away from our center and downstream… –Certain to fall.   How am I supposed to detest, despise and foam with hatred?! I see my eyes, my face, my heart reflected in every living thing– Even if I do not recognize myself, I know I [...]

Okay…maybe I didn’t tell you why my new apartment rocks. My new apartment rocks because it has a backyard! I’m in the backyard, writing this blog on my laptop, soaking up the sun, while wiping my nose, while drinking some coffee. It’s very close to my ideal lifestyle. But, for now, I’ll take it. Yes, it’s good for a southern girl to feel the sun on her face, the breeze kiss her skin and listen to the incessant chatter of birds! And, boy are these birds yammering! I’ve gotta enjoy this cold-tinged vacation because I go back to work on [...]

Dude…I’m sick… Boooo!!!! Thank you Nor’Easter Bunny! LOL Yeah, that nice little storm we had set off my allergies, which set off a cold and I’ve been blowing my nose ever since! I have to be thankful that the stars aligned for me to be sick while I’m not working anyway. I should rephrase that not working part. I haven’t been working for other people, but, I have read a script, done research and other stuff for my companies. I also went to two interviews this week… Listen, I’m a workaholic, and unless it’s the flu…I’m not going to stop working. [...]

Wow…what a wet weekend. I like rain, I really do, but, in moderation. Sunday was kinda hellish, I dealt with water in places where it shouldn’ have been… Such as breaking and entering through my front door. It seems the porch upstairs has some fractures. Good thing the floors are tile in my pad, which maybe I should rename the lilypad, cause during the nor’easter, Gaia (aka Mother Nature) insisted I needed to live in nature. And, if not, she was coming to get me. Let me reinterate, I love nature, but, the nor’easter also lowered air pressure which set [...]

So, it’s Friday and I’ve been working on the pad…still. I’m happy to say that I’m done painting two days short of my 2 week occupancy mark. YAAAAAYYYY!!! But still there are boxes to be unpacked, some furniture to purchase, etc…. I’ve been off this week and fielding new jobs to start. One that I thought I really wanted may happen in the coming weeks, or not at all… And, ones I had no idea I might want, are looking ever so good! So…stay tuned. It’s funny how all that glitters isn’t gold, but, I’ve come to learn that sometimes [...]

I’m always amazed at how wisdom is so easily dispersed when we’re looking at other people’s lives. And, when looking in the mirror we are hacks, quacks and stupid. Why is that? Why can’t we utilize our inner Yoda* for ourselves? Love Peace Happiness N One, SunDeevah

So, when you’re me you require space. A lot of space. One of the things I often find so funny is the comments people make when they realize how short I am. I’m only like 5’3 max, and it never fails when people see me barefooted they talk about how they just thought I was sooo much taller! LOL And, my comment is always the same, “I have a big personality!” You might think that’s funny, but, it really is the truth. My spirit is HUGE and it superseds my physical apperance. Which is good for an actor to have… [...]

Life is so good, it’s like the sundae, I’ll never finish, the breeze that blows forever, sunshine that never dims, and the moonlight that glows across time and space… I love my life! So, chez SunDeevah is coming along, I’m almost done with painting my livingroom, the carpet for it was delievered yesterday, and my microscopic bathroom has been organized to fit all of my personal item needs, read: hair products! LOL So…I’m good. And, though I’m impatient and would like to be settled already, I’m taking this home creation thing one breath at a time. For me, creating my [...]

So… who’s tired?!!! ME!  But, I’m incredibly happy. So far, I’ve unpacked my kitchen and blue-taped my living room–oh yeah, I’m painting. I do not do well with neutral walls. I’m so stoked because I’m actually able to be creative on the canvas that is my new place, as well as apply all the cool things I’ve learned on HGtv. I love that channel, and while I haven’t mastered the art of carpentry, I am pretty good at color, concept and execution of interior design. My living room kitchen area will be transporting me to morracco, my bedroom indonesia, my [...]